Regardless if you had a good or bad Valentines its was still a nice day because you were fortunate enough to experience the heartache and joy.
With that being said, my V-day wasn't the best but for some reason I realized what I loved more than who I loved. No doubt there isn't a better feeling then getting roses and candy to make you feel special. However, doing something and getting that warm tingling feeling in your body is a lot better.
Yes, no doubt I want a companion to share that feeling with or hell get that feeling about but now-a-days thats just not going to happen. I have talked about being in love with someone for so long and cried myself to sleep so many nights that you just have to make a compromise with love.
Ok, I quit love! I will stop using your name in vain and constantly imagining what you can do for me once I feel you. I'm tired of always asking myself as every man passes me by "Is that the one". Love is cool but I'm realizing that its nothing like it seems on TV or in movies. Love doesn't come with theme music and dolly zoom shoots with you and your partner looking perfect even after you wake up. Love doesn't always smell good, it doesn't always say the right things , and it certainly can't buy you anything.
This four letter word causes so much confusion and makes so much money its ridiculous. Love this, love that, call 1 800 LOVE 000. The kind of love I want isn't on the front page of Essence or Vanity Fair, or in the greatest movies/Tv shows. As I get old and wise and make solid morals and values for myself; I realize love has to be in so many other places because it goes into someone else. I have to love myself, where I work, my friends, where I live, my family, what I eat, and THEN last but not least someone else. Quite frankly if the person I like doesn't love what I love then WE won't be in love. POINT BLANK PERIOD.
I will never be tired of love or what it means because I have love in my life its just not placed on a romantic relationship yet. It'll happen once I get everything else straightened out.
LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE.
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