*No Judgment*
Why are women so afraid to impress themselves? If you want a companion you need to be happy with yourself before you make anyone else happy. Doesn't that make sense? I know that is the reason I haven't found a boyfriend yet; I haven't made myself happy, I don't hang around people that make me feel happy, and I'm not taking care of my goals. (There is a difference between taking care of business and taking care of your goals) I have so many people who look up to me and it's a disservice to everyone who is remotely liked to me, for me not to live for myself first.
So let me start this over again…lol…
I'm the shit. Weird thing is I just found out at 4:50 in the morning. After a brief session with myself, I fell in love. It wasn't the best sex I have every given myself but it did hit the spot and gave me a clownish smile from my…orgasm. I can give myself mind scattering orgasms w/o all the hoopla everyone is always talking about. It probably took me 5 minutes to get warmed up and about 5 minutes to make myself smile. I'm still shaking from it occasionally. Why haven't women realized that they can give themselves the best feeling or feelings in the world! There is only one man who has given me an orgasm worthy of putting me into an insane asylum and I definitely plan on marrying him. However, my next step is to find a woman who can give me that insane orgasm…lol…The journey begins!
WAIT while I'm on this journey I need to be able to give these orgasms to other people. The blessing is no good if you can't share it. I know I pretty good at head. However sex really doesn't amuse me but I force myself to do it just for the record. I get nothing out of sex except well stretched inner thigh muscles. I love head for myself and giving it is a pain but I feel it is my service sometimes.
I hate feeling obligated to have intercourse b/c it's the norm. Why can't you just give me head and let me on my way or hell let it be equal.
2009…Its M!M! Time!
